For the longest time, I had been asking myself,
"How do I know? How will I know?" And for the longest time, I had no
answer. I always ended up questioning myself if something was a
test to hold on or a sign to let go. I perfectly knew that there were these
two little voices in my head. But my thoughts were clouded and were confusing me which was right, and which was not.
It took me long. It took me years to get it, to
understand, and to finally act on it. But when I was in that situation, I was
not really perceiving it as such. For me, things were okay, because I had no
value for time. I had no care for tomorrows. All that mattered was the now, and
worst, the past. Too much admiration of the past. Of how the story began. Of
the physical and emotional investments in the relationship. Of the wrong sacrifices… yet so less for the
future.
